Minimalism on the INSIDE
Remove anything that distracts us from the things we value most. I love that. The last three months I have had this sick obsession of being soothed by Youtube channels that promote minimalism, pinterest pins, de-cluttering books and minimalism TED Talks.
Three months ago I sprained my ankle right before a big climb I had planned and it through me off my "I think I am invincible" beam. Since then I went into deep concern for trying to do whatever it takes to get back to running and climbing again, I started off with becoming plant based! It all started with hearing about dairy and meat naturally inflaming the body and I just wanted the opposite of all of that....obviously.
So I went vegan. I'm still vegan....and it's working. Not just in my physical body, but in my mental body as well. I feel since I have stopped eating animal products I have become lighter physically (lost 9 pounds), and mentally....in the sense that I am no longer walking around in a food fog.
You know when you're stressed and you reach for sugary ice cream, a nice doughnut, or maybe carb and chemical pumped fast food? Yeah.... I can't do that so basically I am constantly aware of what I'm putting inside me and don't have that mental fog glaze that I used to get by the joy of covering up my feelings with food.
Minimalism on the OUTSIDE
So you now know that I am plant based in my diet. Becoming plant based was actually quite easy for me and once I got used to it I started looking around at everything, I mean EVERYTHING in my life. It felt so soothing to have a diet that was so pure and simple that I wanted more. I took it to my home base. This coming January I am moving in with my boyfriend and started thinking about the moving process. I started things about the THINGS I own. I started thinking about the single duffel bag that I live out of all week long as I am basically already living with him.
I noticed I wash the same clothes every week and the thought of even looking at my closet gives me anxiety. So I started small. The dresser....I took out anything I haven't worn in a year and started donating bags and bags to charity.
The closet - I am a puffy jacket horder so I basically took everything out of my closet and started selling my nice items on sites like Poshmark, Offerup and Letgo. Every single time I let something go, I felt ---happier.
What a concept.
Maybe there is this idea that whatever you hold on to that no longer serves your purpose -will basically hold you down. Keep you stressed. It all makes sense now that half my stuff is gone. I'm a yoga teacher so in class, I say this all the time in the sense that your mental thoughts and expectations of life will keep you sick if you do not let them go....and as I was cleaning my space, I realize that this can be physical mind-cluttering objects as well.
The worst part of this process were my books. I have a slight attachment to them...I self soothe in book stores and buying books so for this situation - I had to treat it like a bandaid. In one moment I came from work, scrapped the shelves and started posting every book online in various groups offering my free books, and within a day, they had new homes....and you know what? I felt nothing but joy. I didn't even have a moment of sadness. It felt so good to just have LESS.
So now I am here...reflecting on my 3-month minimal diet and minimal living space and it brings me to energy. The energy from others....
This has been a difficult thing to notice but its very real. When your mission is to declutter everything, you notice a bit more intently if a friend seems to flake out on you a lot. Before this, I could care less but now.....its almost like a warning sign. When you hold space for your flakey friends in your day and they don't show, or don't even bother to let you know at all...it's a weird feeling. It's also crazy being a woman at 30 years old seeing this clearly for the first time this late into my life. I try to remind myself to be kind and just move on. To set stronger boundaries and sometimes the people you love, you can love from afar. Our bodies, time, goals, and values are so important. It can hurt going down this road at first- but in the end its all beauty.
So from now on I live from Intention.
I live with strong boundaries and values.
Now, I open my heart to life without the fluffy pillow on owning shit I don't need.