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Photo Journal, Running

Having Fun with the Process

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Today make a single plan for your future. Something you’ve always wanted to do or somewhere you’ve always wanted to go. Now get excited for what you can do today, tomorrow & the weeks or years ahead. Have this plan in the future but get more excited about right now. What can you do right now?

Someday you will look back and wish you spent more time thriving in the little moments.

When you thrive in today, you never have to wish you were somewhere else. It’s great to have goals but it’s even greater to have moments that mean a lot to you during the process.

This is where I am today.

Right here.

I’m always dreaming about the future and lose track of today. My “goal” right now is to make every single day matter while still having my exciting plans in the future. I will write down a list every evening of how I can make my next 24 hours fantastic and it will just be a fun little game for me.

Minimalism

recognizing our ‘fantasy self’

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i struggle with trying to find purpose in life. my mind turns faster than my movement. i am impulsive. when i am having a ‘down’ day, i start to crave things. i want to buy things that i do not need to help fill up the ego of my fantasy self.

can you think of a way you feed your fantasy self? a fantasy self is the side of yourself that you see in your “goals”.

let’s see - someday i will accomplish blah blah and my future enriched self will wear this item, she will use this camera and she will definitely need such and such for the vacation she hasn’t bought yet.

she will buy that vacation - don’t worry, she’s just busy saving now.

she will keep clothes that don’t fit her because someday she will lose the weight and fantasy self can step back into those small flattering jeans - maybe.

 

but maybe when we reach that fantasy self, fantasy self won’t even want to wear those old fucking jeans. maybe fantasy trip to italy is no longer even in her mind and now wants a trip to greece. maybe fantasy self doesn’t need a dslr because her iphone is taking fantastic pictures - and it’s oh so compact.

 

what i’m getting at is this - we hold on to possessions and ways of being to support some fantasy version of who we wish to be. but we forget who we are.

right now.

i mean right at this moment.

 

we’re so busy thinking about the anxieties of who we want to become...maybe we should take a step back and see what’s happening at this moment. what if we focus on living one day at a time. maybe we create boundaries on our idea of fantasy self and start to truly high five our whole self, the one who we get to be every moment of right now.

 

 

that’s where i’m at right now. i recently bought a new camera on an off week which was last week. last week i was envisioning how i would feel with this specific camera. i loved it for how small and efficient it was. i obsessed about it. i watched a million youtube videos on it and when i got it, i was excited. it’s less than a week later and i want to return it because i realize how much i already love my big and heavy dslr.

 

our emotions are so tricky. when we are down,  we sometimes imagine how much better our day would be if fantasy self had a new item to add to our sad day....when in reality sad days pass and no amount of material possessions will cure that feeling for longer than a moment.

 

i’m trying to live without regret. i know that i must return this and i will feel better financially. i know that last week i was just having a down week and that it’s okay to have it. i can’t run from my feelings but i can acknowledge them.

 

things i am working on:

 

  1. return impulsive items that do not serve my reality self.
  2. when i have the chance - get out into nature, it’s free and always makes my day better.
  3. try to go to yoga 4-5 times a week and have the intention of “ground down”.
  4. spend more meaningful one on one time with my love.
  5. don’t watch the news - don’t give my opinion on the news - as i don’t believe everything the media suggests we believe in.
  6. give away all items of clothing that are either too big, too small or don’t match who i am today.
  7. ask friends and family to no longer gift me material objects but experiences instead.
  8. build savings account
  9. keep all of my clothing for my company, Choose Mountains in a storage unit. keeping work separate from home is very important for me right now.
  10. daily gratitude lists
  11. only surround myself with positive people that bring joy to my life
  12. stop worrying about what people think of me
  13. take more photographs
  14. buy replacement pieces for broken things, rather than buy entire new items, especially when things can be fixed!
  15. take workshops or classes for things i’d like to learn.

 

i believe we are all on different journeys and my journey may be quite different than others reading this. i think it’s great to always check in with yourself and make sure you are living and thriving within the reality of who you are today and not daydreaming of who you wish to be in the future. it’s a beautiful thing to water the grass we already stand on, then wish it looked like our neighbors lawn.

Photo Journal

Welcoming Fall

Three months ago I had a bad sprain and was unable to do a lot of hikes and climbs I had planned this past summer. This made me practically crazy. Sometimes I would attempt a hike, which then would be followed by one or two weeks of having to restart my healing. I would ice and elevate every night and wear wraps and tape up for everything. I had to find gratitude that it wasn't worse. Eventually things got easier and I went through summer healing and finding my way back into a stronger yoga practice that I now see as a huge blessing. The last two years I have been teaching yoga every week more than I'd actually been taking yoga and it showed. Once yoga became my only form of exercise, I started to improve stability without pain quickly. 

I believe that having a more regular practice has helped my mental as well as physical state in order to get me back out on the trials. This brings me to now. Within the last week I actually did three different hikes! What a blessing and just in time for my favorite season of them all - Fall. 

This was my first hike back and it was mainly a scramble for half the hike, with a good amount of elevation gain with great reward:

I felt so inspired by that hike that a few days later my boyfriend Derek and I decided to go to a place in Rainier National Park called Fremont Lookout. This hike is avery popular trail so we went on a Sunday evening and got to watch the sunset behind Rainier, it was glorious.

The colors were starting to change and the views were incredible. This past Wednesday my friend Shelley asked me to come with her to a hike called Lake Valhalla. I have done this hike before for a Choose Mountains meetup but never saw a view because it was socked in and snowing the last time I'd been there so I was excited to go back and see the change of colors. Look at what a beautiful turnout this was:

Washington is one of the most beautiful places in the US. I can't believe that I got to do all of these hikes within a week with NO PAIN AT ALL. It's amazing to see the journey of where our lives take us and in this moment I'm just so happy to be able to experience so many things. I am hoping to blog more often on this site. Feels like home to me to blog again. I used to blog for 7 years so it's just so nice to get back into. I have more ideas for the future so stay tuned!